Writing Myself to Freedom

I never used to enjoy writing in any way/form whatsoever. I always viewed it as a tedious task that I only applied when I was forced to do so by outside forces such as for a specific job I was in or like when I was in school for example. So my previous experiences of writing always had a negative polarity charge attached to it.

Then I joined Desteni where I was introduced to a different 'side' to writing. It was shared that writing is a tool which one uses to set yourself free. At first I didn't understand what this meant at all however I immediately reacted and created a resistance towards the point. It was like an already automated, pre-programmed resistance which was stored within and as collective memories of my past experiences/ideas/beliefs/perceptions around the point of writing.

So here I will give a practical example of how one is able to utilize writing as a tool of freeing oneself, and show what it practically means to 'free oneself' by using my experience of the above shared point as an example:
So within investigating the reaction I had and the resistance I experienced towards the point that was shared - I will bring that moment back here so that I can see for myself by placing the information in front of self, what actually happened.
So the point was shared that writing is a tool that one uses to set oneself free. Now, when I heard this I reacted and immediately without question formed a resistance towards the point. My reaction and resistance was not based on an evaluation of the point of what it actually means to write yourself to freedom. I mean at that exact moment I had never before heard a concept like this in my life, so in retrospect it is like strange to have reacted to it even though I didn't have a clue as to what it implies. So, it was as if I was not the director of myself in that moment, because I was not in that exact moment consciously choosing to react to the point and to resist it. It just happened as if the word 'writing' was a trigger point which triggered and immediately manifested a consequential outflow of events, one of which was the experience of resistance towards what was being shared.

Now going back to my previous experiences/beliefs/perceptions/ideas around writing, which I gave the examples above of when I was in school and when I worked at specific jobs which required me to write - It is clear that my past experiences of writing were stored as memories which I carried with me until this point where 'this new side of writing' was proposed to me. So in the moment of being presented with this 'new side to/of writing', I allowed the memories of my past experiences of writing step forth and influence my experience in this exact moment.

So what does this show me? It proves to me that I was not fully present and self-aware in that very moment, but instead was living out a pattern which had been created through my ideas/belief/perceptions or my previous experiences of (in this case) writing. And the pattern was just repeating itself over and over as if it were a car that was driving but had no driver.

And what I find fascinating, yet at the same time extremely frightening is that before I started on my path of self-investigation (through participating and applying the tools provided at Desteni), there was a time where I actually truly believed that these patterns which I was living out within my life as the personality of Rozelle - I believed this was in fact who I was.

What writing oneself out does is it allows one to take out all of the information one has within oneself as thoughts/ideas/emotions/feelings/perceptions etc. and place it in front of self so that one is able to mirror yourself back to yourself and then within that one is able to investigate and see clearly where you have given your power away to past events which are stored as memories. Thus you are able to slowly get back into the drivers seat of the car called your life instead of existing as a pre-programmed robot which is programmed by past events and which only reacts to life by having it's buttons (past ideas/beliefs/perceptions) triggered - never actually being here in the physical as a self-aware being who takes into consideration all other beings that share the same HERE in this physical reality.

In my process of release myself from my pre-programmed way of living, I use writing to show me to me so that I am able to identify the points where I am not 'the self-aware driver' of myself, and then I use self-forgiveness to disengage/release myself from the patterns which do not serve me and which do not fall within the principle of what is best for all - they only exist to keep me enslaved.

Practical example of how I do this:
Taken from above (first paragraph) -
I never used to enjoy writing in any way/form whatsoever. I always viewed it as a tedious task that I only applied when I was forced to do so by outside forces such as for a specific job I was in or like when I was in school for example. So my previous experiences of writing always had a negative polarity charge attached to it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to view writing as a tedious task within this I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to write without this judgement of 'writing is a tedious task'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to form a resistance towards the act of writing due to my past experiences of writing at school.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the memories of my past experiences of writing when I was still in school.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect writing to an experience of being forced to do something within this I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to write for myself as an expression of myself.


This is just a brief example but it is basically how through applying this tool of writing myself out, I am able to face what I have accepted and allowed to be the 'drivers' of me and within this process I am able to take back my drivers seat within taking self-responsibility for all of what I have allowed to become what is known as Rozelle (my personality entity). Through changing myself in this way I am aligning myself to the point of being a living example that change in this world is possible.
Writing is in fact a process of self-expansion - So I breathe and a write - simplicity.


Here is a supportive video about writing yourself to freedom:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V4WfMno6af8


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