Thursday, September 13, 2012

Day 55 - Fear of Conflict - Self-Forgiveness Part 5 - Inferior Character



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my power as directive principle away to this 'inferior character' I have created and from this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my power as directive principle away to those within the same situation by/through existing within/as the 'inferior character'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the 'inferior character' as a protection mechanism to not 'stand out' within a conflict and/or confrontation situation. From this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe/perceive that I will somehow be 'safe' when I find myself in a conflict and/or confrontation situation by/through stepping into and acting out the 'inferior character',  instead of realizing that by/through existing within/as this character I am only adding fuel to the fire as I am allowing myself to stand as one part of the same polarity, therefore it must play out because I have accepted and allowed myself to be equal to this.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as weak when/as I find myself within a conflict/confrontation situation, and from this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see realize and understand that this is due to the character I have created and equalized myself to which is the inferior character, where within this I always see others as superior and stronger than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attach a point of superiority to those within my world and reality that are older than me and from this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have attached a point of fear to the act of standing up for myself when/as I see that an older person is in the process of abusing me or another as themselves through not doing what is best for all within a given situation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe/perceive that young people are inferior to those that are older than them in age.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have adopted this belief from what my parents had taught me in relation to "respecting your elders," and that "it is rude to question an older person". From this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that this 'respect' is merely an agreement made by self to accept and allow abuse which is perpetuated by the characters each one exist within and as.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to step into the inferior character when/as an older person confronts me on any point and from this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into complete submission within/as myself towards the being with the intention of 'just getting through this experience as fast as possible', instead of stopping, standing up within/as myself and evaluating the situation here within a practical, commonsense best for all investigation process from which I then direct myself to communicate as an equal to the being, at the same time breathing,  here within/as stability.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to step into the inferior character when/as I am in a conflict/confrontation situation with someone whom I have attached the point to of 'people like this person more than me', and form this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give this belief the power to alter and affect my ability to stand within such a conflict/confrontation situation within/as stability and self-directedness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to step into the 'inferior character' when/as a person raises their voice at me or changes their voice tonality to sounding the way I perceive an angry tonality to sound.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that my creation of and existence within and as the 'inferior character' indicates that I have also accepted and allowed myself to create and exist within and as the 'superior character'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within/as the superior character and from this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that the superior character is manifested as the equal and one opposite of the inferior character which I have accepted and allowed myself to create and exist within/as in order to avoid facing the inner conflict I experience within/as any conflict and or confrontation situations.



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