This is a
continuation to my blog posts:
and
In my previous post
listed above, I shared a memory
in relation to the point of when I started to really develop a relationship
of 'fear of what others will say/think about me' from which I have created a relationship
of self-compromise through always changing
the way I behave and interact when I am around certain specific people or when
I find myself in certain specific situations.
feeling like an
outcast when children
at school made jokes about how poor I was because we couldn’t afford for me to
go on the school excursion.
From this I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have defined myself as an
outcast based on the energetic reactions I experienced of embarrassment and
self-judgment when others made jokes about my family being unable to afford
certain things.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to within the memory of children at school
making jokes about my family’s apparent inadequate money
status/availability, take these jokes personally and from transform this
reaction into a relationship of self-judgment and fear
with myself in relation to money within the belief that my worth is reflected
within how much money me/my family have or don’t have.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed a world where those with money make jokes
about those within lessor positions within our current monetary system, where
within and from this children reflect this division
by money as being OK through making jokes about those that are less
‘fortunate’, which is a direct indication of what the parents of the world are teaching
children to accept as values which do not stand as what is best for all.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to have carried the memory of when I
was teased as a child about not having ‘enough’ money along with the emotions I
experienced and the self-beliefs I defined myself to as being somehow less than
those with more money with me throughout my life, wherein from this I have
always allowed myself to judge and
compare myself to others in relation to how much money each has and from this
move myself to standing in a position of either inferiority or superiority
within and as myself in relationship to this construct I have created within
and as myself.
From this I forgive
myself that I have accepted and allowed this relationship of inferiority and
superiority in relation to money status affect the way in which I interact with
my environment and the people within it which can be seen
in the way I change
my behaviour
within different environments and upon interacting with different people.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to within the memory of children at
school making jokes about me being poorer than them, create a relationship of fear within and as myself
in relation to what others say and think about me, within the starting point of
wanting to be accepted by those within my world and reality.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within a relationship of
self-judgment in relation to my history of struggles with money, and from this
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to
think/believe/perceive that there must be something wrong with me for not
having had lots of money within the comparison
between myself and those whom I grew up around who came from rich family
backgrounds. From this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed
myself to see, realize and understand that we live in a world where inequality
is birthed from our current economic systems and that we have within the
current systems allowed ourselves to accept that a person's worth is defined by
the money they have, wherein from this we have manifested absolute abuse
towards life where we exploit the earth for her resources and within
this allow millions to starve to death because we continue to support these
systems within the way in which we live.
I forgive myself
that I have accepted and allowed myself to buy into this abuse system within
the way in which I have allowed myself to judge myself as less than and
inadequate in relation to not being rich with money, based on taking others'
behaviour towards this point personally, and from this buying into the beLIEf
that there must be something wrong with me because I was no longer 'cool in
school' due to the financial gap between my family and the families of my
peers.
I forgive myself
that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that
the value of life as who I am
is not determined by how much money I have, and from this I commit myself to
stand for the implementation of an Equal
Money System in order to make this a living statement within the world
today, so that no one has to suffer
and die at the hands of a system which stands to prove this otherwise through
making the value of life equal to money.
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