realized what I had just done - I had squished the little guy. I dropped down to the floor and investigated the state he was in, and profusely apologized to him. His one eye was completely shattered and there were some of his inner s hanging out of his mouth. I then knew what I had to do… I had to kill him, as this would be what is best for him. However I fought this realization within myself for at least a minute or 2, as I was completely stuck within this feeling of guilt as well as an experience of sadness for what the frog must be experiencing. I was also in a way hoping that in some way he would be OK, so that I would not have to kill him, so I was investigating him closely to see if there is any sign of this. He was jumping and looked fine on the one side of his body, but as soon as I placed myself in his shoes, I realized that he was not OK and would not survive with the deformities he has from being squished.
So in one moment, I breathed and grounded myself within myself and stopped participating within the emotional experience I was in. Then I started looking for a brick or similar to kill the frog with. I found a big and flat surfaced rock which would be able to do the job effectively. I then took him outside onto the step, and then came this IMMENSE resistance to doing what I knew I must - kill him. Then I realized that the longer I procrastinate = the longer he is suffering. So I literally had to use my voice and speak directly to myself through the emotions "STOP Rozelle! Breathe.." and then I hit the rock as hard as I could over the frog. As soon as I lifted the rock, he jumped out from under it, so I had to immediately repeat the same process to finish his life on earth off.
I went into the detail here specifically, to show a point I realized within this all. Doing what is best even when your whole body and mind fight against it. Living what is best is in moments extremely tough, however it has to be done no matter what. Now, If we look at the world we live in with all of the suffering existent within it. We can see how we avoid walking through our own minds and resistances towards applying that which is best for all. Yet we all get triggered with anger and emotion whenever we see an animal or human suffering in the form of shared news/pictures/documentaries etc. However, we are too eager to protect our experiences of ourselves within this life, and this prevents up from stepping beyond our own self-interest in order to do what is necessary to stop the suffering which exists. All kinds of protection mechanisms exist within us in the form of justifications, belief systems, opinions, ideas, blame etc. Doing what is best is not an easy task when you are protecting your character's design. So the problem then exists within one's character, within the design of the character one has accepted and allowed oneself to be/become. Time to start INVESTigating your character within its totality, and establish the problem points which are preventing you from living what is best for all. It's no easy task to face oneself, yet we owe it to ourselves and those around us if we ever wish to see a world where life is respected and all are able to live in dignity. Investigate Desteni I Process and Eqafe for support within the process of investigating your pre-programming and learning how to step beyond that in order to arrive atthat which is best for all (which obviously includes yourself).
Here are some cool interviews about the consciousness of a frog: